Hearts Desire: To Teach


What is your heart’s desire?

When it comes to my heart’s desire, I have tons but let me share one.



Since I was young, I know deep in my heart that I have this thing with kids. I love to be with them, playing with them and teaching them. Growing up I thought it was just a hobby, or something I love to do with my pamangkins and at church for missions and sunday school and never for a living. Came 2015 when I felt the strong calling from God to be in a full time ministry – teaching the less fortunate kids. From then on, I knew my purpose. I lived out Matthew 18:14 and Proverbs 22:6 that both talks about the importance of reaching, teaching and loving the children.

One wise man have said “it is easier to build up a child than it is to repair an adult”. I believe that the world is so broken that the only way to have a better world and a better tomorrow is to create a better generation.

It is my greatest desire to have a better tomorrow for the future generations. My desire to shower hope and life, that even if they were born and raised in a poor community, they’ll not die like that because there will always be hope — hope that this world may fail to give, hope that can only be found in Christ Jesus.

Teaching for me isn’t just a profession but a calling and a choice.

A call and choice to serve, to be self-less, to save the lost, to hone the future, to believe that in every child there is a bright future that awaits for them.

It is my desire that when my time is done here on earth, I’ll have legacy to leave.



“The future of the world is in my classroom today, a future with the potential for good or bad… Several future presidents are learning from me today; so are the great writers of the next decades, and so are all the so-called ordinary people who will make the decisions in a democracy. I must never forget these same young people could be the thieves and murderers of the future. Only a teacher? Thank God I have a calling to the greatest profession of all! I must be vigilant every day, lest I lose one fragile opportunity to improve tomorrow.”
–Ivan Welton Fitzwater


Stop striving and Start serving



In the midst of a heartbreaking trial, God clearly gave me the verse from Psalm 46: “Be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10). As I meditated on this verse, I saw that “be still” could be translated “cease striving” or “let go, relax.”

I had been doing everything I knew to do, everything I could do, in order to fix this painful situation – and then came the Word of God: “Be still, Kay… cease striving… know that I am God.”

God’s Word was clear. I couldn’t fix it, and I needed to stop trying. I had wept. I had prayed. I had tried to make things right. I had searched my heart, rehearsed all my failings, and experienced the grief of them all. Yet nothing had worked. The situation hadn’t changed; the incredible pain had not gone away.

Now it was clear. If I were to walk in faith, if I were to live by faith, I had to cease striving. I was to quiet my mouth and quit trying to teach, to instruct, to straighten out, and I was to know God. He sits as sovereign on His throne; He hasn’t moved. And I hadn’t seen “the rest of the story.” My part in this situation was simply “to be” rather than “to do.”

I have to cease striving. I have let go and relaxed. And He had shown Himself to be God! The sweetness of that one incident of divine intervention was a precious salve for my pain – the pain which had become a welcomed friend, for without it I would not have seen how very clearly He is God.

Whatever happens, I do know that I am to continue to rest, to relax and to remember that He is God. I am to walk by faith and remember that I am not God, that I cannot fix the situation. My responsibility is simply to trust and obey and to be what He wants me to be. I am to embrace truth and to live by it. I can’t live by my emotions, by dwelling upon my past, by focusing on my inadequacies, my weaknesses, my failures, or my impotence, and I can’t trust in anything of my own flesh or strength. I am not to fear whatever the future holds, for the future is God’s.

I am to live by every word which proceeds out of the mouth of God whether or not my reasoning or emotions agree. Truth, the truth of God’s Word, is to be the plumb line by which I evaluate every situation, every decision, every response, every feeling.

Our Savior is God, and He sits as the Son of Man at the right hand of God – above every power of the evil one, above every name in heaven and on earth. He is God, your Savior and your High Priest, who lives to make intercession for you – you as an individual.

He loves you with an everlasting love. He will never leave you nor forsake you, even when you fail to be and to do what is less than perfect. He is absolutely committed to you and in His time and in His way, He is going to perfect, to complete, everything which concerns you.

Be still… Sit still.. and know that He is God.


Kay Arthur
Host, Precepts For Life
Co-CEO, Precept Ministries International

(Derived from https://www.crosswalk.com/faith/spiritual-life/how-i-stopped-striving-and-started-resting-in-him-11625482.html)


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Ako’y iyong nabighani

Sayong mga ngiti

Kilig ang namayani

Sa bawat sulyap ng mga singkit mong mata

Puso ko’y para bang kakaba-kaba

Sa isip ko’y boses mo’y paulit-ulit

Para bang isang sirang plaka

Isa kang inspirasyon sa bawat umaga

OO, ako’y iyong taga-hanga

kaya’t ako’y umaasa

na ito’y umayon kay tadhana

Every day battle

Disclaimer: This was the Bible lesson that I used in one of my Bible Study in FHLM, derived from (CEF) manual.

“Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation, the old has gone, the new has come.”  

 2 Corinthians 5:17

As someone who have accepted the free gift of God in Jesus Christ; who believed that Jesus died for our sins on the cross, was buried and resurrected and as believers we know for sure that we are already in Christ, we are already a new creature and our old selves are gone. 

But we also know that we still live in a fallen world, and being a Christian won’t give us the exemption to sin, hurt, ache, disappointments, discouragements and so on. So as a Christian, how to we really combat and prepare for the battle?

1. We are in a fight

  • First, we have to remind ourselves that we are in a continuous battle and that we shouldn’t be complacent. We are in a day to day battle of our old self – who we are before we come to know the Lord VS. our new self – who we are and should be in Christ.

2. We have to know our enemy

  • Second, ofcourse in a battle you have to know your enemy. Hindi lang basta know, but you have to study who that enemy is.

Part of that enemy is who you are before you came to know the Lord. Were you insecure? Jealous? Liar? Gossiper? Remember that those things are just part of your past and YOU ARE NO LONGER THAT PERSON. 

“So you are no longer a slave, but God’s child; and since you are his child, God has made you also an heir” Galatians 4:7

Satan will do everything he can to deceit us; sins, doubts, and temptation. Remind yourself John 10:10 that says “The enemy comes only to steal and kill and destroy…” He will steal your joy, kill your hope and will destroy your relationship with God, with other believers and even with your own self.

You are no longer slave of sin but slaves of righteousness. Romans 6:18

3. As Christians, we need to be strong

  • Just like an athlete preparing for his fight, we also need discipline and exercise to make us strong and prepared for the battle. And how can we do it?
  1. Watching what we feed ourselves.

            What do we eat? Do we devour in ‘unhealthy – worldly things? Or we guzzle                       with the word of God and prayer?

But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.  Galatians 5:16

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. Philippians 4:8

     2. Exercise and Discipline

          The best exercise your new nature can have is prayer. A gymnasium of prayer                 every morning, before you get up and face the world is a good jump start.

    3. Listen to your coach which is the Lord Jesus Christ.

         He is the best coach in the world and if you listen to what He says in the Bible                   you will conquer and win.

4. Seek help to win.

  • In this battle where you have thousands of thousands enemy, you need a help of a great team.

That team should be lead by the Lord Jesus Christ himself for He alone will help you overcome it. Along side him, a family of believers who will pray for you, even fight the battle with you, encourage you, motivates you and will held accountable for you

And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near. Galatians 10:24-25

So now, as we continuously face the battle, let’s examine ourselves;

  •  Is there some sin in your life which you need to beat and control? You have tried and you failed?
  • Do you really want help to beat and control it? 
  • Will you ask the Lord Jesus to give you that help today?

I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world. John 16:33



Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

Hebrews 12:1-3

“Okay ka lang ba?”

Uy Kumusta ka?” they asked.

“Eto okay naman.” I answered with a fake smile.

I’ve had a tough week – tough and rough and it made me feel empty on the inside. Alam mo yung feeling na sa sobrang sakit, di na ko makaiyak – sa sobrang sakit, wala na akong maramdaman, sa sobrang sakit wala na ko ibang masabi kung hindi “Hindi ko alam.” Words aren’t enough to explain what I went and going through right now. I seriously can’t even put it in words. Hindi ko na nga rin maintindihan ano ba talaga nararamdaman ko.

I feel chaos. I wanted to run and hide. I feel like I’m on the verge of giving up. I feel like I am already losing hope. I tried seeking help from other people yet there’s no one to find – or maybe I am looking on the wrong places – or maybe I never asked for help because Im scared to drag other people down and to cause toxicity.

Tonight, I was surrounded with people yet I still  feel alone. I was laughing the entire night but none of it was real; my eyes wants to cry and my heart was screaming “I AM NOT OKAY.”


I am hurt.

I am wounded.

I am broken 

And I am in dire need of help.



“You are good You are good
When there’s nothing good in me
You are love You are love
On display for all to see
You are light You are light
When the darkness closes in
You are hope You are hope
You have covered all my sin”

Hindi ko alam pero this song was on repeat on my ears, it’s as if the song is speaking to me. It’s as if  it’s God’s answer to my plea.

Totoo naman eh, He is indeed good even though I am not good, even if the world around me is not good, and even if there’s nothing good happening. He is the light, He remains the light even if I am surrounded with darkness, He is and will always be that light. He is the hope, my only hope.

Pero, minsan, sa mga pagkakataong katulad nito, ang hirap. Ang hirap sabihin, ang hirap ikanta, it’s so hard to remind myself of all those things, ang hirap isabuhay. Pero, I know, this too shall pass. Matatapos rin to. Matatapos rin.

So, ano nga ba ang tamang sagot sa tanong na

“Uy kumusta ka, okay ka lang ba?”


“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
John 16:33



“Not just a teacher”

Background of the story: I am AB Comm graduate but God called me to work in a full time ministry – teaching less fortunate kids and teen girls. We conduct weekly Bible Studies, feeding programs and tutorial classes. It’s been two years since I started working with these teens in this community.

“And now I entrust you to God and the message of his grace that is able to build you up and give you an inheritance with all those he has set apart for himself.” Acts 20:32

I am entrusting the ministry that I am blessed with to the Lord; all my students and disciples. It is my responsibility to share the gospel to them and to HELP them grow and mature in faith but NOT TO CHANGE THEM. As their teacher, I am just an instrument of God and everything that happened, is happening and will happen in the lives of my student is not really because of me or my hard work, it’s all because of Him. This also serve as a reminder for me that this ministry is not of my own, nor of anyone in this world, but of God that’s why it is very important to entrust them to God – to His and and His will because in the end, it is still Him who will work wonders in the lives of my students.


Also, Paul stated in Acts 20:24 “But my life is worth nothing to me unless I use it for finishing the work assigned me by the Lord Jesus—the work of telling others the Good News about the wonderful grace of God.” Ministry work isn’t always fun, and smooth sailing. Paul even stated that “He shed MANY tears” while in the ministry but in the end, he was able to say “I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have remained faithful.” 2 Timothy 4:7

Now, one of desire is that may I also able to fight a good fight and finish the race so that in the end Jesus can say ‘Well done, good and faithful servant!’.

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